Love

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving.

Live in the Present Moment

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, or not to anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly. ~ Buddha

Another Sleepless Night and Manic Day

Couldn't sleep at all last night so I finally got back up and started cleaning and rearranging things.... again. I worked on several art projects too. Just couldn't stay  focused on any one thing for very long but did manage to get a lot accomplished in spite of myself. 

Of course the dogs were not happy with me at all for breaking their routine. They have such expressive faces. I wish I could understand what they are really thinking.  But then maybe I really don't want to know either.

Weekends are so weird for me now. Don't really want to hang out with our "couple" friends and be the "odd " person tagging along. What single friends I do have are way to young for me to be hanging out with and I just can't see myself hanging out at a bar waiting for some creep to hit on me. Just thinking about it makes me shudder. 

Sure will be glad when Spring gets here and I can start working outside again. 

Tears

Tears have a wisdom all their own. They come when a person has relaxed enough to let go and to work through his sorrow. They are the natural bleeding of an emotional wound, carrying the poison out of the system. Here lies the road to recovery. ~ F. Alexander Magoun ♥

I did my Best but it wasn't enough.

He was the best thing to happen to me. I loved him with all of my heart even when I didn't know I did.  I did some things that hurt him...more than I realized at the time. But even then I loved him and felt I was losing him and didn't know what to do or say.
I spent years trying to show him and prove to him that he was number one. It wasn't enough...never enough. Now the pain is more than I can bare. Do I regret loving him so much? NEVER!!!!! He made me happy for so long and gave me more than anyone ever has or ever could . For that I am thankful and will take those blessing to my grave with me. I can truly say that I have loved wholly and completely and have been loved that way in return. Which is more than what a lot of people can say.  I only wish that I been smarter and better so thing could have turned out different.

If You Bring Love

If You Bring Love
by~ Joseph Campbell

At a certain moment in Nietzsche's life, the idea came to him of what he called 'the love of your fate.' Whatever your fate is, whatever the heck happens, you say, "This is what I need." It may look like a wreck, but go at it as though it were an opportunity, a challenge.

If you bring love to that moment - not discouragement - you will find the strength is there. Any disaster that you can survive is an improvement in your character, your stature, and your life. What a privilege! This is when the spontaneity of your own nature will have a chance to flow. Then, when looking back at your life, you will see that the moments which seemed to be great failures followed by wreckage were the incidents that shaped the life you have now. You’ll see that this is really true.

Nothing can happen to you that is not positive. Even though it looks and feels at the moment like a negative crisis, it is not.

Moments

If you are waiting for anything in order to live and love without holding back, then you suffer. Every moment is the most important moment of your life. No future time is better than now to let down your guard and love.