In Memory of Tessa Edwards a friend and Inspiration

Kisses blown are kisses wasted.

Kisses aren't kisses unless they are tasted.

Kisses spread germs and germs are hated.

So kiss me baby; I'm vaccinated.

When will I stop crying??????????????

It seems that every day I cry more and more. I cry myself to sleep at night and I wake up in tears. I cry at work and when I'm driving. Sometimes I even have to pull off the road I cry so hard. Is it the holidays that make it seem so much worse? Or am I just totally losing it all together? There are only 2 days left of this year and I'll be spending them alone. I can't stand the thought of spending them with someone else and trying to act like everything is ok. It's not OK!!!!!! I know it will be someday but today it's not ok.

PEACE

To be at peace in any endeavour,
we must release our need
to control the outcome.

Letting go...............

Todays thoughts

‎"Let go of what you think life should be so you can experience the life you have." ~ Rhonda Britten

This one that I still have major issues with. My head knows that the words are true but my heart refuses to accept it. It still clings to the hope that things will turn around. 

I do keep trying!! 

Love

Love & being loved to the depth of your spirit is what
gives meaning & purpose to life. When you have loved to
the full extent of your heart’s core, reach further &
find that you can love even more. This is the secret
of happiness. This is the way of the spirit. ~ Ham Seok-heon

Love and energy

Love the moment and the energy of that moment will spread beyond all boundaries. ~ Corita Kent

Todays thoughts

‎"Let go of what you think life should be so you can experience the life you have." ~ Rhonda Britten

You do not wake up one morning a bad person. It happens by a thousand tiny surrenders of self-respect to self-interest.

Lessons Lerned

‎"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure...that you really are strong, and you really do have worth." ~ Unknown

New Kitchen Table

Today I picked up a kitchen table and chairs  for my new place.  Still not moving for a few months and don't know where to yet either. But the set was listed on "Freecycle" and is a really nice Farm table style set. I may strip it and re-stain the table top and chairs... still thinking on that one. Guess I'll decide when I find out where I'm moving to.
Things are moving forward. The divorce should be final in  6 to 8 weeks. Still have meltdowns but also starting to look forward to starting a new life.

Letting Go

‎"Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward." ~ Unknown

Believe

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe. ~Anatole France

♥ Joan ♥
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Tranquility

‎"The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being." ~ Tenzin Gyatso, 14th Dalai Lama

♥ Christine ♥

Buddha Blessing

via BUDDHA BLESS: Your body is precious. It is our vehicle for awakening. Treat it with care. - Buddha

Attitude says it all

It is very important to generate a good attitude, a good heart, as much as possible. From this, happiness in both the short term and the long term for both yourself and others will come.
~Dalai Lama

Just remember.....

You are so very beautiful. Never forget this. You are perfect just as you are, and getting better all the time.
- Dorothy Mendoza Row

Hugging

Hugging is practically perfect: There are no movable parts, no batteries to wear out, no periodic check ups, low energy consumption, high energy yield, inflation proof, non-fattening, no monthly payments, no insurance requirements, theft proof, non-taxable, non-polluting and of course, fully returnable. ~ Unknown